Former UFC middleweight champion Anderson Silva (pictured) has been hellbent on getting back in the cage after suffering arguably the most gruesome injury MMA has ever witnessed when his left shin snapped in two after Chris Weidman checked his kick last December.
While Silva’s doctors have said his titanium-infused leg healed at a “crazy” rate and have cleared him to return, many wondered how Silva could so easily erase the horror of his shin heading in opposite directions. Well, it turns out “The Spider” hasn’t, and the Brazilian is experiencing human emotions just like the rest of us.
“I’ve worked with a psychologist so I can get rid of the ghosts of those horrible moments of that fight, when I had that accident,” Silva recently told Brazil’s Fantastico (translated by MMAFighting.com). “I’m a little apprehensive in training. I know I can execute the movement, but I end up not doing it for fear.
“I feel no pain at all. My strength is back because I’m back to training. The hardest part is self-confidence, to kick again as I used to.”
As a 39 year old who is widely regarded as the best to ever play the game, many wonder why Silva feels the need to continue fighting when there’s nothing left to prove. Fact of the matter is, Silva knows his days of donning the title are over and it appears as though he just wants to prove to himself that he can come back from such a debilitating injury.
“I’m over this thing of being champion, having the title,” Silva stated. “The truth is, there will only be one Ayrton Senna, there will only be one Pele, and there will only be one Anderson Silva, so whoever saw me [as champion], saw me. Who haven’t seen me [as champion], won’t see it. In a way you’ll see me [fight again], but not for the belt, that thing of being champion again. I don’t have patience for this. I think I’m closer to retirement every day.”
Silva makes his highly anticipated return against Nick Diaz at UFC 183 on January 31.