Twenty four days have passed since Holly Holm posterized Ronda Rousey (pictured), stealing her UFC bantamweight title and evaporating her aura of invincibility.
Outside of one Instagram picture with her family on Thanksgiving, Rousey has fallen off the face of the earth since she left UFC 193 a bloody, battered and bruised mess. Rousey’s small inner circle had to claw their way in just to get her some human contact.
Rousey’s mom, sisters, boyfriend, coach and Dana White are essentially the only ones who have had some sort of consistent communication with her since her devastating defeat.
However, Rousey finally let someone from the media in to share with the world what she has been up to since Holm shattered her goal of retiring from MMA undefeated.
ESPN’s Ramona Shelburne was granted a lengthy and exclusive interview with Rousey the day after Thanksgiving – Black Friday, seems fitting since all of Rousey’s days have been dark after getting dominated by Holm.
Here are the cliffsnotes on what Rousey’s been doing:
Rousey’s busted lip is pretty much healed, but there are several teeth that are still loose.
“I’m just really fucking sad.”
“I need to come back. I need to beat this chick. Who knows if I’m going to pop my teeth out or break my jaw or rip my lip open. I have to fucking do it.”
Rousey said she never got her feet under her when she stepped into the cage. Then she never recovered after getting popped in the mouth in the opening 30 seconds.
“I got hit in that first round. … I cut my lip open and knocked a couple of my teeth loose. I was out on my feet from the very beginning.”
“I wasn’t thinking clearly. I had that huge cut in my mouth and I just spit [the blood] out at my feet. Then they brought the bucket over and I’m like, ‘Why didn’t I spit it in the bucket?’ I never spit on the ground.”
“It was like a dumbed-down dreamy version of yourself making decisions. … I was just trying to shake myself out of it. I kept saying to myself, ‘You’re OK, keep fighting. You’re OK, keep fighting.'”
“I just feel so embarrassed. How I fought after that is such an embarrassing representation of myself. I wasn’t even fucking there.”
She slept the entire 15-hour flight home from Australia thanks to the painkillers. Dipped and dodged the TMZ cameras as best as possible after landing at LAX.
Then, radio silence.
“I’ve turned off my phone. I haven’t looked at it. I’ve just been having long conversations with Mochi [her 7-year-old Argentinian Mastiff].”
Her and boyfriend Travis Browne immediately hopped in his truck for a previously planned 15-hour drive to a remote ranch in Texas.
“I kind of just slept a lot and ate fast food,” she says, sitting up a bit on the couch to see what Mochi is doing. “First I was so sick I couldn’t eat anything. Then I just slept and pooped in the woods. I used a whole roll of toilet paper in one day.
“Physically, my body was refusing its own failures. It was, like, sick of itself. Expelling itself. Like all the skin came off my face. My whole body flushed it out.”
Rousey purposely left her phone at home, Browne answered texts on his phone on her behalf.
And forget about reading the Internet, Rousey already knew what was being said, “That I’m a fucking failure and I deserve everything that I got.”
Rousey explained that she didn’t touch gloves with Holm because of what happened the day before at weigh-ins.
“I was like, ‘The last time I saw you [at the weigh-in], you were putting your fist on my chin and trying to get a cheap hit on me, then you turn around and you want to touch gloves? You have to be one way or the other. So if you want to be that way with me, that’s the way it is.'”
Rousey says this loss won’t define her career, but the rematch will. She even hinted at possible retirement with a second straight loss to Holm.
“I guess it’s all going to be determined by what happens in the rematch. Everything is going to be determined by that. Either I’ll win and keep going or I won’t and I’ll be done with everything.”
True to form, Rousey’s tough-as-nails mom keeps telling her to “woman up” and “move on.”
“It wasn’t long before she was stopping by and telling me that I can’t hide my whole life. I have to do something with myself. Turn on my cellphone and stop ignoring everyone.”
That’s when Rousey posted the Thanksgiving day pic on her Instagram.
They talk about the pre-fight drama involving her coach, where Rousey’s mom said he was a “terrible coach” and “terrible person.”
“I told Ronda I am not going to go [to UFC 193] because I love you more than winning,” AnnMaria De Mars said. “I did not think she was in the right place, and I couldn’t pretend any longer that I thought she was.
“People let her down.”
Hmm, I wonder who she is referring to as PEOPLE?
Rousey says she’s sticking with Edmond Tarverdyan.
“Of course I’m staying [with Tarverdyan],” Rousey says. “That’s my mom’s opinion, not mine.”
Tarverdyan continues to question why Rousey kept charging the counterpuncher. Why didn’t Rousey stay patient like he had preached throughout training camp?
Well, everyone has a gameplan until they get punched in the face…
“I always think I can lose all of them,” Rousey says. “I’m the only one that’s scared when I walk in there. I’m always fucking scared.”
So will she fight again?
“Of course. What else am I going to fucking do?”